Too Much Drama for One Night

Tonight was suppose to be a relaxing night with my hubby & dogs. When I got home at 5.30 pm that was NOT the case. I had my 2 nieces with me & we were just hanging out, when I heard some weird dog wining & barking. I thought it was weird & so I went outside & investigated like a good nosy neighbor I am. When I looked through the fence I saw 2 pit-bulls attaching another pit bull dog. One dog was at the neck & the other was attaching the face. I called Brad immediately & he told me to call 911 & I did. They gave me animal control's number & I called them. I gave them my information, the neighbors information & they said they would be out in about an hour & half. He has to do something in Anchorage before coming into Eagle River. He also told me he would stop by our place to talk. The longest 1.5 hrs in my life happened. I called at 2 hrs later & they said they are probably on there way. Another hour went by & Brad & I had no more patience. Brad was out there keeping an eye on the dog & when the other dogs looked like they were going to do something, Brad yelled at them & banged on the fence. I called Animal Control, yet again, and was finally patched with an animal control person. They said that they went by & posted something on their door to inform the owners what was happening, but they aren't able to do anything because it is on personal property. I was livid when I heard this. They can look over the fence & see a dog suffering & can't do anything because it is on private property. I was like what... They said when the owners get home to give them a call & then they can help. Well low & behold about 10 minutes later the owners came home & Brad was able to get their attention & let them know what is going on. He went over to help them move the dog & I called animal control. The owners took the dog to Pet ER to get fixed up or do what they have to do. Animal Control then called us & told us that they have been in contact with the owners & called Pet ER to let them know that the dog was coming. Animal Control will come & get the other 2 dogs and have them put down. Come to find out, that the owners rescue abused pit bulls & try to train them to be good dogs. They started this after they lost a child. The dog that was attacked was there own dog that they rescued & kept. One of the owners just got home from major abdominal surgery. Talk about a night. But it is over after 3+ hours. I HATE seeing an animal in pain & even worse when you feel helpless. I pray that everything will go well, which ever the end may be. That was my drama filled night. GO FRIDAYS!!!

Till Next Year

I would love to start my blog off with we are pregnant. But not today. Maybe next year. We found out on Friday that our little divider didn't take. I did three pregnancy test that came back negative & the nurses at my work convinced me I needed a blood test to confirm. We know this isn't the end & will try again next year around July time. Since only one egg kind of was fertilized we are not going to do IVF per say, but ICSI (Intracytoplasmic Sperm Injection). Which means that the Dr. will take one sperm & inject it into the egg. We don't want to take the chances of only one egg getting fertilized. It is a little bit more expensive, but worth every penny if it works.

We were a little sad that it didn't work, but know that there are always reasons behind everything. It maybe small or big.

Now are focus is on our Mexico Cruise in August. I can now take Valium for my anxiety for flying, which I wouldn't have been able to do with a baby on board. We can now do excursions in Mexico & other fun things. 84 more days!!!

It will be 2 more years before a baby will grace our family & a lot can happen in that time. Maybe Brad will be on the Anchorage Fire Department & maybe I will be a school nurse. I know the Lord has a plan for us. We just need to be patient & willing to except what ever he throws at us.

We want to thank you all for the prayers & support. We love you all.

Future Thomas

The EGG... What a small thing that can turn into a giant Thomas. I think Brad did 90 MPH down there. He was so excited. We left at like 4.30 pm & got there at about 7 pm with an hour to spare. So we thought why not get ice cream. We went to the local DQ & had a little something to kill time & then made our way to the apt. Dr. Anderson got to the apt at the same time as us. There was no more waiting. He is fact was in his scouting uniform, because he had to drop of some scouts at Anchor Point for a camp out. It went really well. Dr. Anderson was really nice & he even talked. Which most of you know that has been my biggest complaint, was his bedside manner. We talked about all kinds of stuff. He showed us the egg that he thinks will work (4 cell one) & that he is putting all of them in because he is. But only one is working. When he went to go put them in, I was dreading it. I know how very uncomfortable it can be, but I didn't feel a thing. Brad said he sprayed some stuff on my cervix & it numbed it right up. They were put in & I was told to lay on my stomach for 20-30 minutes, because my uterus sits anterior. Whatever. Then he had to go do rounds at the hospital & he told us to turn the lights out & make sure the door was closed behind us and left. There we were all alone in a clinic. Cool.

So now it is done & T-13 days till the big test. Dr. Anderson says he wanted the egg to divide again, but it didn't. Hopefully it will in uturo. I think it is a boy egg, because only boys would think, "I'll divided when I get around to it." If it was a girl egg, it would get it done & be divided!!! Now we wait. Thank you again everyone.

All you need is ONE!!!

IT DIVIDED!!! IT DIVIDED!!! Just after my last post, I got a call from Dr. Andersen saying that my one & lonely egg divided into 4 & he feels it will divide again. So at 4.30 pm we are off to Soldatna & hopefully around 8 pm tonight we will get pregnant. Oh, every emotion is going through my body right now, I can't explain it. The nice thing is I know it will be only one. No twins or triplets here... Then on 5/22/09 we will take the pregnancy test & will find out if the little divider took. Yippy!!! Thank you all. We love you & have a fabulous day:):):)

"One is the loneliness number"

Yes I am quoting a song. Actually one of my favorites to be exact. It will go well with this post, because it is the loneliness number. An update to the lovely IVF path. I would love to say it is fabulous news & that things are going great, but it isn't. Both the egg & sperm looked great. But somehow they just didn't want to talk to each other. Well ONE I think is communicating. Dr. Andersen says that one egg has divided once, but doesn't know if this is viable or just happened. We is going to continue to keep an eye on it & if it decides to divided some more then Brad & I are off to Soldatna. If not, then we are done with this cycle of IVF. Now we just wait some more. We pray that the one little egg will wake up & start dividing some more.
We appreciate every bodies prayers on our behalf. We know that what ever the Lord has in store for us, we will be grateful. We don't know what we are going to do if it doesn't work. We are in limbo at this time & to tell you the truth I am VERY numb to it all. Thank you again for everything.

5-5-5-5

Five seems to be my lucky number. Brad had to give me my trigger shot at 5 am, we had to be in Soldatna by 5 pm on the 5th of May & Dr. Andersen was able to get 5 eggs. I do know this, I will NOT be pregnant with 5 babies... I have to say this, it wasn't the best thing in the world to experience. It took 2 tries to start an IV. The first one was cursed with, "Oh, you have such big veins, this will be easy." Wrong. Then the meds went in, which of course burned & then I felt drunk... I just wanted to go to sleep. Fat chance. I was awake for it all. He started with harvesting the eggs & that wasn't the funniest. It hurt like the dickens. They offered me more drugs, but I don't know which was worse the burning of the meds in my veins or a needle going in & out of my ovaries. The ovaries won!!! I just wanted it to be over. Brad was a great support. He was my rock, my hero, my everything. I couldn't have asked for a better husband. In the end, they were able to get 5 eggs, 4 big ones & 1 small one. Which Brad says is me. I laughed my drunk/drug self. After they received both of our junk, they will wash it & then let it sit in an incubator for 4 hrs & then combine them & we will get a call about 36 hrs later with any news. Needless to say, I have been on pins & needles all day. But they say you don't want a call early because it may not have worked. So I don't mind the wait at ALL!!! Starting 10 am tomorrow I will be biting my nails off & pulling my hair out waiting for the call.
Over all, it went well. I am thankful for this opportunity to have children & hope & pray that it works. Now I pray for our little dividers.

Lucy

5/3/09 Was a fantastically beautiful day. A wonderful Sunday to have a big bright sun & oh so warm:):):) Well, since it was so warm it was time to water the lawn. As we were putting the hose out we found a hole & of course it would leak. We turned the the water on & Lucy freaked out & attacked the hose. We of course had to video tape it & we wanted to share it with you all. I hope you enjoy, because we sure did.

5 am

I had my ultrasound this morning at 11 am & what a treat. Brad came with me & we both go to see the potential of my ovaries!!! In fact they looked like aliens. I wish I had a picture to show you, but I don't. Things are going really well. The goal is to have them between 18-22 mm. I have 3 that are in that range: 18,19 & 21. Then I have FOUR that are at 17 mm. The plan now is to take my 3 injections tonight, so that my 17's can get bigger & then TOMORROW at 5 am Brad (poor guy) will be giving me my first of many IM injection. THEN we have to be in Soldatna at 4:30 pm on Tuesday. And then it will all begin. So there is a potential of getting 7 embryos... Don't worry I won't be the next octamom, he only puts in 2-3. Ok, there is a VERY slim chance that I can be the next octamom, but I strongly doubt it... The wheels are moving & things are looking great. We just want to thank everyone for their prayers & support. We are praying that it works. We can't wait & are so excited. Thank you again:):):)

And I thought it was over!!!

Boy was I WRONG. I had another ultrasound/blood work this morning & I thought this was it. I was going to get a phone call saying take your trigger shot & be here in 36 hours. Nope. Fat chance. My blood work is great where I don't have to get tested again, but my little follicles/cysts aren't big enough, sooooooo another ultrasound on Sunday @ 11 am & then we wait and see. They need to be between 18-22 mm & the larges one was 16 mm & the other 4 or so where 13 mm average. What I thought was over, I still have 2 more days of injections. I swear I could never be diabetic & I think the Lord knows this. I just don't know. I don't like doing my own injections. The nurses I work with have offered to do them, but I have to do them between 6-10 pm & I know that they don't want to wait until then. But they will get there chance come IM time. They suggest that they are done in the morning. I hope they are prepared. So right now, if everything goes fabulous on Sunday & I do my trigger shot that afternoon, then Tuesday is the big day. It better be, because I will be out of some drugs. In fact 2 I will be out. The important ones. The ones that grow the eggs. I am need them. But over all, we are getting SOOOOOOOOO excited. I will write more on Sunday.