So the other day...

Brad & I were watching Julie/Julia. A movie about a person writing a blog while cooking Julia Childs recipes & her experiences. At the same time you get a look into Julia Childs' life. There was one part in the movie that made me stop & cry a few little tears. In the movie she receives a letter from her sister that was recently married that told her that she was pregnant. When she read that she turned and cried into her husbands shoulder. For that brief moment in the movie I felt her pain. I to have cried many times in my husband shoulder with news of people getting pregnant. I don't want to sound like I am not happy when my friends or family announces they are pregnant. I am truly happy for them. I am excited to go to their baby showers or even throw them a baby shower. I do pray & wish to expand our family. I truly daydream about the day when it does happen. I can't wait.
Today in church I had to attend another ward for their ward conference. The joys of my calling is attending other wards for their conferences. I get to meet so many women. During Relief Society I get to introduce my self & tell them a little bit about my self. I say I am an RN, married & have no children. I, of course follow that with, "we are hoping to adopt soon." After the meeting a sweet sister came up to me & told me that after 6 yrs of marriage her & her husband adopted a boy & he just returned off his mission. She gave me a little glimpse into pain of what I am going through. She knew what I was going through. I love that she didn't say to me, keep the faith & hold on or there is a baby out there for me. But she just understood. I know I am not a lone with this challenge & I know that Brad & I will one day be parents. When I don't know. Hopefully not when I am 99 yrs old. I am truly thankful that I do have this time with Brad. He is my rock & my love. I couldn't have asked for a better husband. He had been the best through all my testing, shot giving & hormone imbalance. I truly can't wait to see Brad as a dad. He will be the BEST dad in the world. I can't even explain how he is with kids & how patient he is with them. People may say I am biased. But when he gets father of the year, you will then find out truly how amazing he is. I know the Lord has His hand in all things & I love praying at night & pouring my heart & soul out to Him. I can't thank Him enough. He is truly my Heavenly Father. So I will continue to wait & be very excited for all that get pregnant around me. Because I know that my day will come & the WHOLE world will know:):)

Uncle Brad

I think my neices love Uncle Brad more then me. I am the one who makes them quilts, blankets & other fun things. I take them to fun places & I attempt to teach them the fun in cooking. But when it comes to homework assignments, they will write about Uncle Brad & not me. Go figure. Kennedy had a writing lesson last year & she had to write a letter to a family member. She wrote to Brad. It was cute when we found out. Because Mike & Dee had no idea until parent teacher conference what Kennedy did until the teacher gave them the letter. It was so cute. Then Reyna had to write a story. It was the cutest story. Here is goes:

Saving My Family!

By: Reyna

One day a firefighter came to my house. There was a fire! I couldn't really breathe. It was painful. So the firefighter came in my house and saved my cats and dog. I was so happy. I gave them a huge hug! And I yelled hurray. It was cool that they saved my mom and dad too. I was so so so happy. I just noticed it was my uncle who was the firefighter.

It was so cute.

I am thankful for my husband. He is going to be the best dad ever. He is so good with Kennedy & Reyna. He is very patient & a great teacher. When ever I have the girls over after school & they are doing their homework, Brad is so good & amazing with them. I have a feeling he will be the good parent. I can't wait for him to be a dad. He will be the best!!! It makes me sad sometimes knowing that I am the one who can't give him that. But we are hopeful for adoption.

Why did I become a nurse?

So, the other day a friend of mine asked for a favor. He daughter had to interview a nurse & so she emailed me the questions. I forgot that the daughter was in Utah & wasn't able to help her complete the assignment. However some of the questions made me think. There was actually 2 questions. One I will discuss later, but the last question was, why did I become a nurse? Easily, I love working with people. I know when I talk about my job, I talk about how my patients annoy me & some of them should just go away. But to tell you the truth. I LOVE BEING A NURSE!!! It fits my personality & I love it. I love working with people & it is a lot of fun. You meet the most interesting people & the crazy things that they do. In fact, I never thought I could make it as a nurse. But the Lord has a way of leading & guiding you in life. My patriaritcal blessing states that, "you will lift heads up with your kind acts." Something like that. I laugh when I read that. It is a great job. It isn't cut out for everyone. I still day dream about going back into the hospital to be a L&D nurse, but right now I need to be were I am at. I chose this career & I am happy with it.
Ok. The other question is, what do you like & dislike about nursing. I hate to say it, but I was quick to name my dislikes more then my likes. And I hate to say it & this is why I am so jaded as a nurse & a compassionate person. I hate, I use that word, because that is the only way I can express the irritation of this. I hate when people take advantage of a system that is to help people & they abuse it & make it hard for everyone else. Yes, I am talking about Medicaid. I have one too many patients that are on medicaid that shouldn't be & should get off their lazy butt & get a job or education to better themselves. I think that it is great that there is a program out there for those that need it, not deserve it. I can't tell you enough how many people abuse this system & get away with it. I get so angry when I think about it & the health reform that is out there. Well not so much now. I am sorry, if you can't control medicaid then how can you do a reformed medicine. Let alone take money away from people that are FORCED to be on Medicare & expect them to get medical care. I strongly believe that people who don't have control over the medical, for example those under the age of 18 & over 65 should with out a dought get medical coverage. There should be no reason why. They should be the number one priority. I do believe that everyone that is legal in the United States should have the right to having coverage. The clinic I work for is taking less medicare because it isn't paying very much, it should be the other way. I feel medicare patients should have no problem getting into a provider. That is my number one dislike. I apologise to my patients for the unsympathetic attitude. I blame the MANY patients that have taken advantage of my nice, no problem attitude. I hate to say it, but when you truly have a problem, I have heard it a thousand times & the sad thing is, I am tire of it. I will continue to serve you, but I am sorry if I don't sound like I care. So my advise to anybody who wants to go into the health field who has a heart. Have a funeral now, because your heart will shrivel up & die. Ok, I am not saying that all of nursing is this way. I do have a goal to be a school nurse. I can't wait. I loved when I substituted for the school district. I love working with the kids. They are innocent & haven't been jaded by the world just yet. Now I may write about how I don't like the parents, but that is a whole different story:):)