Ultrasound/blood work

I went in for my check-up to see how the ovaries are doing. According to the doctor they are doing nicely. They didn't have to adjust my meds & I have another one on Friday. He says that egg retrieval this weekend. YA!!!! Then hopefully between Tuesday & Thursday next week he will be putting the dividers back inside. We are getting so excited. Brad is so cute about the whole thing. He wants to be a dad so bad & he will be a great one. I see him with the kids in my family & he does fabulous. I think he is going to be the fun parent & me the mean parent. He still can't handle the injections. He hates that I have to in flick pain on myself & says he couldn't do it to me. So needless to say I had to recruit injectors for when I have to do IM injections. Because I KNOW for a fact I won't be able to do those on my own. Too large of a needle. No thank you!!! I will start those either Sunday or Monday & it could last for two to seven weeks. Oh, goodie... But the injections are going well. I still freak myself out with having to put a needle, mind a small one, in my stomach. I do the worst injection first. It is my repronex & it BURNS when it goes in & I don't like it at ALL. Over all it could be worse. Well, that is an up date of all the fun going on. Will post more on Friday...

Three

Now I ask myself: Why am I doing this? Then I think, oh ya I want children. Today starts the stimulus drugs. I wish I was getting a stimulus check instead, but I am not. As you can tell my ovaries behaved themselves & so I have started my injections. There was miscommunication between the nurse & I & I was only suppose to give myself one shot a day for 5 days, but instead I had to do it for 9 days. Long story & very irritating. But I am over it & have begun. I am to do THREE shots for 5 days & then have an ultrasound/blood work to see if my ovaries are doing fantastic & at that point they will adjust my 3 shot doses & then wait a couple days & have another ultrasound/blood work & then decided from there, etc. etc. etc. You would think that giving myself shots for 9 days would prepare me for the big day of three. WRONG!!! I was more scared then I have EVER been. I just couldn't do it. Good thing Brad was there for moral support. He said he couldn't do it either (to me, not him). But I did it & I think I should get a gold star. The first two weren't so bad, but the last one burned & it is the longest shot to give. But it is over for now & 4 days to go for now. I am HOPING & PRAYING that my first ultrasound/blood work comes back perfect & I can go from there. But fat chance I am sure. Oh and I made a mistake tonight. Not a very good one. I was suppose to put 1ml of saline into the powder mix & I accidentally did 2 mls. Oops!!! I couldn't think of giving myself 4 shots. Because 2 mls in the belly is A LOT!!! It is official I am a pin cushion. I think this maybe my only go at IVF or a very sick way of getting over my fear of needles/shots. I keep tell myself that this is for a good reason. When I find out, I will let you all know. Because I ask you this, are you sure you want little Brad's & Sarah's roaming the earth. It can be scary. Now we just wait and see. Wish me luck...

It has begun!!!

I did my first shot tonight. It was scary. It was the smallest needle & so cute. I was scared to death to do it. I was about to start hyperventilating, but then I thought about all those kids that are diabetic & give themselves their own shots & I got over it & stuck it in. It didn't hurt. I think the shock of having to poke myself was all I needed. Tomorrow I have my first ultrasound to see if my ovaries have been behaving themselves.
I also learned that Dr. Anderson takes photos of the embryos prior to putting them back into me. CRAZY. I will have to post pictures of our dividing little cells. Which will one day be little Thomas children. It is also scary, because I hope I don't become to attached to the little dividers. But I have to have hope & faith that it will all work out. I know the Lord will provided what He thinks is best for us. It is hard to leave it in His hands, but whatever happens I know He has a plan for us.
So it begins, my little box of torture is doing it's job...

I Swear They are Legal!!!

Today I received a box of torture. My medications... I don't know if people know this about me, but I hate getting shots and I am a nurse. In fact I don't do flu shots & I am over due for my tetanus. I think the Lord is getting back at me or playing a cruel joke. Also, if I get pregnant, my children better appreciate what I went through, because if not, I may have to give them 3 shots a day for 2 weeks in the stomach & then 1 shot a day for 7 wks in the butt. Yes, I said butt while blogging. So this is going to be my life for the next 2-3 weeks. Starting the 15th I start one injection a day for 5 days & then after that I do 3 injections for 2 wks. At day 1 I have an ultrasound to make sure my ovaries are behaving & didn't produce any cyst & if everything looks fabulous then I continue. So then at day 8 & 10 I will have another ultrasound & blood work to make sure my ovaries are happy & producing lovely cyst full of a fabulous eggs getting excited to come out. After that my doctor will determine when they are perfect enough & when they are, I will give my self a shot in my bottom or a friend from work (lucky them) will do the injection. Once the injection is given we have to be in Soldatno 36 hours later for egg retrieval & then growing the embryos. After that, we wait for 3-5 days for implantation. Then of course the waiting game to see if it took... But that is going to be our life the next couple of weeks. I pray that Brad will survive my hormonal change & crankiness. Which it can be easy. So if Brad calls you to move in, please remind him it is temporary. Well lets HOPE!!!