Happy Thanksgiving

It wouldn't be Thanksgiving if I wasn't thankful for something. Here are a few things I am thankful for.

• Life here on earth.
• A Heavenly Father who loves me
• My faith
• The serves men that serve our country so that I can have a great life here on earth
• My free agency.
• My family. They are fantastic. Especially my amazing nieces. They are the best.
• Brad's family. I couldn't have asked for better in-laws.
• My job. Even my patients. Even though they drive me nuts at times, without them I wouldn't have a job, let alone an interesting job.
• My health.
• My challenges of not being able to have child. I LOVE the time that I have with Brad.
• Adoption. Can't wait to meet the wonderful birth parents that will one day make Brad & I parents.
• My dogs: Lucy & Abigail. They help me cope with not having children. They are the coolest dogs in the world. I love them.
• Quilt group on Thursday. I have meet the best people there & they are such great friends.
• Facebook. Yes. It helps me stay in contact with friends from all different parts of my life.
• My house. It is small but it is great. Cozy & perfect.
• The Book of Mormon. It has helped me in my life more then any other book EVER written.
• President Thomas S. Monson. A living prophet on the earth. Wonderful. He is such a great man. Thank you.
• My parents. Who have given me everything & has asked for nothing in return.
• My brother. Mostly because he has made me an aunt to those amazing girls. And for being a great big brother:)
• My friends who deal with me & all my wonderful slips in life.
• That Henry is doing well & is with his family for the holidays.

Mostly I am grateful for all that I have been blessed with. I know I don't thank Heavenly Father enough for the blessing in my life. But I am thankful. I couldn't have asked for a better life. He loves me & I am thankful. I have a great family. Don't get me wrong I have fun times that happen, but they are fun times so matter what they are. I love my husband and thankful for him, he is the man in & of my dreams. Thank you to you all. Happy Thanksgiving everyone:):)

Life & Death

I will be the first to say that I am scared to die. I am not dying, don't worry. I think mostly because there is still so much to see & do here on earth. Reason I talk about death is, a great Uncle & a very dear friend died with in the last month or so. They were young & it ended so quick. My uncle died of pancreatic cancer. Went to the hospital because he wasn't doing well & was diagnosed, went home & died about 2 weeks later. Which made me think, if I had 2 weeks to live what would I do. One I wouldn't want to sleep in fear of never waking up. I would want to be with family & go to Italy for a week. Then I would love to go to the Temple & finally fall asleep in the celestial room with my husband. The funny part is I talk about death all the time with Brad. Most wives will give permission to their spouses to remarry & be happy. NOT ME!!! I am a little possessive. I want him to myself & I don't want him to fall in love again. He can get a dog. I have to say with death around me, it makes me think. I am grateful for the gospel. Having the knowledge of the after life & knowing that we will live again. I am thankful for that knowledge. Especially since Brad & I were sealed for time & all eternity in the Temple. That death will not separate us. I am thankful for the Atonement & that I can be forgiven for my sins to one day live with Heavenly Father. I know I am not perfect & I sin everyday, but I am thankful that I can be forgiven. I am thankful for the willingness of Jesus Christ to take upon my sins & ALL the sins of the world so that WE can return. I could never image the pain & suffering that he went through for me. I am thankful for the Bible & The Book of Mormon that teaches about Him & what he has done. When I drive home or right before I go to bed I think about what I can do to be a better person. Of course I fail because I haven't changed the things that I hate about myself. I know that I can be better. I can be a better person, nurse & wife. I especially need to be a better child of God. I am a child of God, no I am a Daughter of God. I always think that if you really knew who you were you wouldn't do the things of the world. But sometimes life is hard. Which brings me to my good friend that passed away. She knew that she was a daughter of God & she knew that the Lord loved her, but life & addictions are rough. I know she isn't in pain anymore. I know that she is loved & that she will live again. She didn't commit suicide, just her body just had enough & it was time to go. As her funeral is tomorrow & her family asked that I read her eulogy, it makes me think also what would my eulogy say. Because eulogies are always written by someone else, it makes me think what people think of me from the outside. Hopefully good. I hope I have a long life ahead of me & that I will be a mom & that Brad & I will be able to raise great kids here on earth. Like I said that are so many things that I want to do & see before I go. The biggest thing is having a family here on earth w/Brad. I can't wait. But I need to have the patience. I know it will happen one day. When I don't know. Only the Lord knows:):) But be thankful for this time of earth. It is such a small time in our lives, but will effect the rest of our lives. It is a test & I want an A++++++++++++ so that I can go to the highest degree of the celestial kingdom. That is my ultimate goal.