What do I say...

I have been think of a title for this blog & couldn't think of one. I thought about, here we are again, but I said na. I still don't know where to begin. I guess I will start with yesterday morning. It was a Thursday, my usual flex day. I don't have to be to work until 1230 & I was up checking my email. Usually I get junk, stuff about my lovely bills or lydia's scrubs. Stuff I love to delete. Well that morning was different. Brad & I received an email from LDS Family Service stating that a young girl has a baby boy that is due the end of May & she liked our profile. That was the gist of it. Brad & I had to both read it over & over again to make sure it was actually real. When we figured it was real, we wrote them back telling them that we are thankful & excited & all that fun stuff. There was more, but I am not going to go into that much detail. Well we forward it to our social worker in WA & with in 30-45 minutes she wrote back. She stated that the birth mother's mother called to get the ball rolling. I was shocked at the quick response. So I thought it would be a couple of days before anything big would happen. Boy was I wrong. Because about 4 pm the missionaries working for LDS Family Services contacted us & asked if we wanted to meet her either Friday or Saturday after 4 pm. I was like we would LOVE to. So the time was set to meet at 4:45 pm. Can I tell you that it was the longest day EVER. I thought time was going backwards. It was nuts. Well the time finally came & we meet with her. She was so cute. The prettiest thing ever. She in fact look exactly like my friend Christy from nursing school. It was crazy. It was a great meeting. We totally cried, laughed & everything in between. I can not tell the emotions that I felt. It was crazy. She was so neat. I loved her mom. They both were very personable & very very nice. So much was discussed. She is due the end of May & they think she will deliver the first week of June. Crazy quick. The way she talked, it sound like we are it. But from our last experience we felt the same way & we all know how that ended. But we talked about names & that Brad & I had different names picked out & we told her & she told us names that she liked. She really liked boy names that ended in -in or -on. One of the names that we talked about was Crayton. She likes that name. We love Crayton James Thomas. I actually love that name. Paging Dr. Crayton Thomas. But anyway. It sounds so sure. But as we were closing, I told her it is her decision & that I hope that she has a great experience. She had planned from the beginning to put the baby up for adoption & the first couple she chose fell through. So she was basically scrambling to find another couple. That is were we came in. She said that she had started buying clothes bc she knew it was getting close & they didn't have an adoptive couple. But she told us she would give us the babies clothes, stating that the baby would be ours. It is so VERY hard not to be so extremely excited. I just want to dance in the streets w/excitement. I want to announce it to the world that Brad & I are going to be parents. But I have to tell you the truth. I hold back a little. I think it is a protection thing, bc things can happen. A family member may step up & want to adopt or she may take one look into that precious little boys face & fall head over heals for him. When the baby is finally placed in our arms, then we will begin to scream at the top of our lungs. YIPPEE!!!!!!!!! Here we are again. Waiting. Which is the theme of our lives. But this is a good wait & a little stressful, but good.
We will continue to pray for her & hope that everything will go well. We pray that the transition will go well & that she will continue to know this is the right decision. We are very thankful for her & she is so amazing. In the beginning she said she was afraid that we wouldn't like here & here is me, I hope she likes us. Because Brad & I looked to frumpy when we got there. I had every intention to look normal, but I got up late & was unable to wash my hair to look like a human & Brad had to go straight from work to there. I swear we look normal & I hope that when we meet again it will be different. Her father wants to meet us. Hopefully that will happen soon.
We are very thankful for this time. I couldn't be any happier or grateful. This young lady will give us the best gift ever. We are thankful for her & will always pray for her. I wish you could all meet her. So for now, we wait & see. I will post more when I hear more:)