No I am not... Every now & then I flip through the channels & am always interested in the show "16 & Pregnant," on MTV. Yes I watch MTV every now & then. Every time I watch I pray that they would do one on adoption & low & behold they did. I never cried so hard in my life. In fact I have a cry headache. Brad & I have been struggling with this decisions in our lives. Especially the choice between IVF & adoption. We have prayed long & hard & always knew adoption was the way to go. But we got wrapped up with the IVF process & wanting our own that we ignored what the Lord really wanted for us. I hate to say it, but I feel like Joseph Smith & 113 pages. Joseph prayed to allow Martin Harris to see them & the Lord told him no & then after the 3rd time him asking the Lord said fine you can show them to him. Well in the end they were lost. I am thankful for the opportunity to try IVF & am sad that it didn't work. But like I always say, there is always a plan. We want to adopt & what is hold us back is the letter to the birth parents. I don't write well & would love to hirer a professional writer to write this wonderful letter that I can never seem to put into words. How do you start one that doesn't sound like everyone elses. My sister-in-law Dee & I have talked about this often & I tell her things I would want to say & she gives me little advise now & then. I guess she is my FREE professional writer.
Back to the show. It was nice seeing the birth parents perspective. It is a hard decision, happy that is one I hope I never have to make or watch my daughter go through. But they knew what was in the best interest of the baby & they thought of her the whole time & not this fantasy world of having a baby & life will be wonderful. Brad & I can't wait to start our own family & are excited to adopt. We need to just do that letter. One day I will just sit down & write the letter. I know there is a little one out there for us. We can't wait.
i just loved that last part... sad and made my heart break, but it was so sweet. "I know there is a little one out there for us. We can't wait." so true, Sarah!! I want to help so badly. I can't imagine the pressure you are feeling to write the letter; I think you will be able to write it better than you think you will. You just poured a little of your heart into this post, so I'm thinking you'll be able to do the same in a letter. It always helps when you've got that 'cry-headache' going on. :) you're more emotionally involved. Just watch a sad movie and then get ready to write!! :) Let me know how I can help. I'd love to!
ReplyDeleteKinda funny cuz I'm hung up on that letter too. I guess I really need to do what was commented above and then be honest and say that "this letter has been the hardest part... what do you say to a great young lady who is having to make such a difficult choice..." I guess I should just write it already. Good luck to you!
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