I have it to say it!!!!

I am thankful to be a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints. I am a Mormon & am proud of it. I couldn't have asked for a better thing in my life. I love it. I can't image my life without the gospel. Where would I be. Haven't a clue, but not here. I am who I am because of what I believe in. And I love it. I love the Book of Mormon it is the best. It has great stories & lessons that remind me that I am a daughter of God, who loves me & you. My favorite scripture is Alma 26:16, "Therefore, let us glory, yea, we will glory in the Lord; yea, we will rejoice, for our joy is full; yea, we will praise our God forever. Behold, who can glory too much in the Lord? Yea, who can say too much of his great power, and of his mercy, and of his long-suffering towards the children of men? Behold, I say unto you, I cannot say the smallest part which I feel." In fact the whole chapter is amazing. I fell in love with it on my mission. It brings back so many memories. I remember being the geeky missionary in Mestre & putting that scripture up on the door. I am sure the Italians thought I was nuts. But how amazing to know that he lives that he love everyone of us. I wish the WHOLE world knew about his greatness. I think that we wouldn't have the problems we have now. People talk trash about the church, but if they really truly studied the principles they would love it. I am not trapped by my church. I am the freest person in the world. I don't drink, smoke or do drugs. I have one husband & he has ONE wife. I am thankful for that. Why do people make fun of us because we don't drink or do anything like that. I love having control of myself. I don't need to drink to have a great time. I am free. My dad who is an alcoholic is so bond by beer that he is in the hospital about to get diagnosed with cirrhosis of the liver. He has the lowest sodium that any of the doctors/nurses has ever seen. They are surprised he isn't dead yet. I would love to show teens & even adults what drinking is all about & what they will look like in the future. Why do people drink? What joy really comes from it? You may have a great night that night, but you are suffering the whole next day. Why do it? What joy do you have? I am sorry for all those people that feel they need to drink their feelings & life away. I am sorry for being so blunt. But you know. I am tired of it. I am tired of all the excuses. Don't drink. It isn't worth it. Life is too short to drink it away. You are in control of your life. Why allow it to control you. I am thankful for the Word of Wisdom. I have no desire to smoke, drink or do drugs.
I know that the church is true. I know that Joseph Smith is a prophet of God. I know he translated the Book of Mormon through the gift of translation given to him by God. I know that Jesus lives & He died for everyone of us that we can all return to live with him again. I know that life is hard, but we can get through it. I know that we can over come everything if we put our minds & heart to it. I know this because I have prayed to know. I have asked & I received the answer through the confirmation from the Holy Ghost. I am a Mormon & I love it. I end with Alma, same chapter but verse 11:But Ammon said unto him: I do not boast in my own strength, nor in my own wisdom; but behold, my joy is full, yea, my heart is brim with joy, and I will rejoice in my God.

16 & Pregnant

No I am not... Every now & then I flip through the channels & am always interested in the show "16 & Pregnant," on MTV. Yes I watch MTV every now & then. Every time I watch I pray that they would do one on adoption & low & behold they did. I never cried so hard in my life. In fact I have a cry headache. Brad & I have been struggling with this decisions in our lives. Especially the choice between IVF & adoption. We have prayed long & hard & always knew adoption was the way to go. But we got wrapped up with the IVF process & wanting our own that we ignored what the Lord really wanted for us. I hate to say it, but I feel like Joseph Smith & 113 pages. Joseph prayed to allow Martin Harris to see them & the Lord told him no & then after the 3rd time him asking the Lord said fine you can show them to him. Well in the end they were lost. I am thankful for the opportunity to try IVF & am sad that it didn't work. But like I always say, there is always a plan. We want to adopt & what is hold us back is the letter to the birth parents. I don't write well & would love to hirer a professional writer to write this wonderful letter that I can never seem to put into words. How do you start one that doesn't sound like everyone elses. My sister-in-law Dee & I have talked about this often & I tell her things I would want to say & she gives me little advise now & then. I guess she is my FREE professional writer.
Back to the show. It was nice seeing the birth parents perspective. It is a hard decision, happy that is one I hope I never have to make or watch my daughter go through. But they knew what was in the best interest of the baby & they thought of her the whole time & not this fantasy world of having a baby & life will be wonderful. Brad & I can't wait to start our own family & are excited to adopt. We need to just do that letter. One day I will just sit down & write the letter. I know there is a little one out there for us. We can't wait.